Time to go!

this shall be my final day of writing i shall tell you the events today that made it the happiest day of my life.

i went to Phoebe's school today and left them a note to give to Pheoebe telling her to meet me at the museum at lunch.i\ i waited around for a bit and i helped some young lads out. than i saw old Phoebe waling toward me with a big suitcase in the note i left her it said that i was leaving to go start another life and i guess she thought that she was coming because she packed all her clothes to go on the trip.

after i told her that i decided i changed my mind i asked her if she would go back to school and this sent her off the deep end and she was pretty mad about it.so after she threw my hunting hat at me i decided that i would take her to the zoo.

we walked to the zoo Phoebe on one side of the road me on the other we finally get to the zoo and start looking at the animals after walking around we get to this old crumby carousal and i managed to convince Phoebe to ride it with out me. as i sat on the the bench watching that little girl ride around and with me with my goofy hunting cap something just felt completely perfect and i felt like  was the happiest guy in the word.

A Show a Skate and....

today i decided i would go take a walk out on Broadway and see what was going on in the big city of new york. as i walked through the crowds of people i decided that i would buy Phoebe a record that she could listen to so i went into this record shop and i decided i would get her Little Shirley Beans its a uncommon record but i managed to find it.

as i walked out of the store i decided i would give old Jane  a call and see what she was up to. i picked up the phone and dialled her number, it rang twice than her mother answered the phone and i decided i better hang up.

as i continued down the street i decided that i would pick up the tickets for my date tonight. that's right a date! i asked old sally if she wanted to go out on a date with me and she agreed!

i went to the theatre and looked at the sign and it said I Know My Love starring The Lunts.  After i bought the tickets i thought boy this show sounded crumby.  we watched the show and i didn't like the piano player was almost to good at what he does. it was like he belonged in a higher performance show.

after the show sally  decided we would go skating and get something to eat. the skating part wasn't to bad! but i kinda ruined the date by getting in an argument and calling sally a pain in the ass! i tried to apologise but she wouldn't accept and she just kept telling me to leave so i finally did i was feeling pretty crumby about what i had done.

Smash.

after i left sally i decided i would give Jane another call and see if she would pick up but there was no answer so i gave up and called an old roommate from whooton Carl Luce he picked up and we decided we would go for a drink at the bar.

i decided that i would go see another movie to kill time. i still found these things depressing as hell but i had nothing better to do i decided to go. the movie and i found it rather boring.

i headed over to the wicker bar where i was going to meet  Carl.

Carl arrived and he sat beside me and told me he had himself a date and he couldn't stay long. i tried to talk to him about sex but he just got all  upset. he told me that i need to go see a pshycoanalyst i than remembered that his dad was one and i asked him if his dad had ever decided to go check out his own son. annoyed by all of our conversations tonight he tells me i need to grow up and he leaves.

After Carl left i was feeling crumby again soi then decided i would try and sober myself up and go take a walk through the park. i stuck my head under the tap and than walked out into the cold. as drunk me decided to stumble around in the cold with now frozen hair i thought i was going to catch pneumonia and on top of that i managed to smash phoebes record too. boy i was feeling depressed.....

Lonley and Desprate

After the depressing night I had I decided I would just head back to my room and relax. I went into the elevator and there was a gentlemen named Maurice and he offered me a prostitute for 5 dollars, when he asked me this I had a million things going though my head I felt really nervous but I told him to send one up to my room. I’m not sure why I decided to have the prostitute come to my room but I did. After a little while there was a knock on the door and it was the prostitute her name was Sunny. We talked for a bit and she tried to seduce me but I didn’t feel comfortable. I told her I was recovering from an operation. I paid her the five dollars and asked her to leave. We then got in an argument because she wanted ten dollars but in wasn’t giving her anymore than five.

After this I decided that I was going to bed and boy did I feel depressed I got thinking about Allie and how I missed him and some of the stuff we did in our childhood but those thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. It was Maurice asking for the five dollars. I tried to refuse but he just got mad and started assaulting me than sunny went and grabbed the five dollars out of my wallet. I felt like crap so I crawled into bed feeling like I had been shot in the stomach and fell asleep.

It’s been a while since my last post I haven’t really had the chance to blog; I’m in a pretty low budget hotel called the Edmont. It’s a very dirty place and it stinks of cigarettes. also on top of that this place is full of perverts the second I get into my room I take a look out the window to see the depressing view and I see a older guy getting dressed in women’s clothing and he starts to entertain him self by checking himself out in the mirror! What has this world come to?

After being disgusted by that I thought I would go down to the hotel bar and smoke some cigarettes and get a drink. That plan didn’t turn out as well as I planned the bar keep wouldn’t give me a drink so I just ordered a pop. I sat and drank my pop for a little while and listened to the music, I wanted some excitement so I went and sought out some ladies. There was three sitting at this one table but they weren’t the best looking ladies but I figured id give it go and see if they wanted to dance. We danced for a bit but they weren’t interested and they got bored and started to depress me. I paid for there drinks and decided to leave this crumby place.

Well today was a miserable day, went to New York for a fencing tournament and after getting to the tournament I realized that I had forgotten all of our gear and equipment on the train. Everybody blamed me! The only reason why I forgot the gear was because I was the only one that knew how to get to the goddam place. I was feeling pretty crumby so I went into this store and bought myself this red hunting hat and I bought myself also a camera.

After I got back to pencey I decided to head down to the game and watch but Jesus it was cold, I took some pictures and froze. I don’t understand why people want to come out here and watch a bunch of people run around a lousy field.

When I was done watching the game I went over to I went over to old spencers house and we talked for a while and he gave me the usual lecture on how I’m failing everything and how I’m a lazy student. It’s always depressing listening to him he depresses the hell out of me!